in March 2010 as Dennis was turning 1 I found out I was pregnant, We didn't know what to do there was so many questions going around in our heads, Dennis had only just turned one, We decided after a lot of thought that we would keep the baby & started getting used to the idea, but then I had a small bleed so I went for an early scan just to make sure everything was okay, I got to the scan and had to have an insertion, they said that I had either got the dates wrong & was only 6 weeks pregnant & not 10 or the baby had died at 6 weeks and my body was not ready to let go (missed miscarriage) later on that day I had pains where they had inserted the camera & more bleeding so I was very scared, The next day, that evening 27th April 2010 I had quite heavy bleeding & ended up passing everything, a week later I had to go back to the hospital to make sure the miscarriage was complete and the doctors there refereed to my loss as a Fetus and not yet a baby which really upset me as to me it was a tiny baby growing inside of me, We didn't know the babies sex so we choose a unisex name Teagan which means little poet, it was at this point I knew it was only right to name my little boy that I had lost in 2006, so I choose the name Tayten which means beautiful happiness, A while after I lost Teagan I decided to start this website/organisation & offer emotional & financial support as I lost both these babies early on in pregnancy and therefore I had nothing tangible to show that my babies existed , Losing Teagan was very hard for us but we had to just carry on as we had Dennis, in the next few months we brought a teddy bear & had it personalised for Tayten & Teagan and I started to feel a bit better that I had something to hold, It would sit in Dennis bedroom on a shelf & look over us all, Teagan would of been my partners & I's first child together which just made things harder, I felt like I was cheating him as I could have another man's child but not carry his to term,